A little community, Southhold NY, voted against a library expansion. K=Kim, A=Another
K: What was the vote?
A: 582 to 402
K: I commented that libraries should be smaller and more books should be online so everyone can have access to them. "Everybook, everyperson, everywhere" is my slogan.
Imagine if the vote was the other way, and 582 voted in favor of the expansion. I'd still be against it. And not because I don't believe in libraries.
A: So what's wrong with a community voting to expand its resources.
K: It would be good for 582 and not so good for 400 people.
A: So the majority rules.
K: And what about the 400 people? Did Robin Hood just threaten their pockets? Are they now going to work another day or week for something they don't want?
A: What is wrong with libraries? Some people like the feel of paper, and books educate. Besides, in Mali people don't have computers. And libraries serve as needed community centers. What is best for the community is good, and therefore even the people who don't want it should be forced to pay for it.
K: I believe that "good fences make good neighbors" so I'm going to take your (hard-earned) money and buy me a fence. Is that the world you want to inhabit?
A: Are you crazy? I know what those 400 people need better that they do (had the vote gone the other way). They need a big expensive addition to the library... that they won't use.
K: And they'll benefit from having a community with better resources, won't they?
A: They may. That's why we invented persuasion. But I'm asking, "should 400 people have to pay for the desires of 582 people?"
K: If it is a good cause. Certainly. Otherwise they could live somewhere else.
A: Can anyone really know what is a good cause for someone else. Maybe the 582 people who want to spend there money on a library should do so. And if the 400 people want to visit... well, that's up to the others. Remember, 60% of any group would love to spend everyone's money. Does that mean they have the right to do so?
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Robin Hood Cures Disparity
L=Linda, K=Kim
L: I'm going to get a baseball bat.
K: But I gave away my gloves.
L: No, silly, it is for you.
K: I don't want one.
L: No, silly, it is for YOU.
K: You already said that.
L: I'm going to bop you on the head when you can't sleep.
K: Take things into your own hands?
L: It is survival of the fittest, you know.
K: Now that we are both up, I want to talk to you about something.
L: Nothing serious, I hope.
K: It is about the villains who want to save society.
L: Yes, like Robin Hood?
K: For starters, he'll do. What is the difference between what he does and what the government is considering, i.e. raising the taxes for the rich?
L: We didn't vote for him.
K: So everything is ok if we vote for it, and not okay if we don't?
L: No, I didn't say that. I'm talking about Robin Hood.
K: Look at it this way.
L: Which way?
K: Just hold on. I'm getting to it.
L: I'm holding on.
K: We are on a space ship, going toward two planets not far apart.
L: You mean in comparison to most planets being pretty darn far from each other.
K: Right! Get back on the space ship. We are whirling through space, and trying to decide which planet to land on.
L: I want to land on the better planet. Or maybe we should land on the worst planet, because we'd be more needed.
K: The planets are pretty identical, but on one there is a great disparity between rich and poor. And on the other there are an abundance of Robin Hoods... and less disparity. Further, let's agree that great disparity is not good.
L: Where do you want to land?
K: Am I rich or poor?
L: It doesn't matter. You agreed that great disparity is not good.
K: Fine. I guess it doesn't matter if Robin Hood or the IRS has spread out the wealth a little. Though it is creepy to have someone sneaking into our house at night.
L: Fortunately, in this age, Robin Hood sits at a computer and withholds a certain percentage from your income. Your dear jewels won't be touched.
K: Whew! Ok, let's land on the Robin Hoods infested planet. Maybe if there is less disparity there will be less crime and more happiness.
L: Hope so.
L: I'm going to get a baseball bat.
K: But I gave away my gloves.
L: No, silly, it is for you.
K: I don't want one.
L: No, silly, it is for YOU.
K: You already said that.
L: I'm going to bop you on the head when you can't sleep.
K: Take things into your own hands?
L: It is survival of the fittest, you know.
K: Now that we are both up, I want to talk to you about something.
L: Nothing serious, I hope.
K: It is about the villains who want to save society.
L: Yes, like Robin Hood?
K: For starters, he'll do. What is the difference between what he does and what the government is considering, i.e. raising the taxes for the rich?
L: We didn't vote for him.
K: So everything is ok if we vote for it, and not okay if we don't?
L: No, I didn't say that. I'm talking about Robin Hood.
K: Look at it this way.
L: Which way?
K: Just hold on. I'm getting to it.
L: I'm holding on.
K: We are on a space ship, going toward two planets not far apart.
L: You mean in comparison to most planets being pretty darn far from each other.
K: Right! Get back on the space ship. We are whirling through space, and trying to decide which planet to land on.
L: I want to land on the better planet. Or maybe we should land on the worst planet, because we'd be more needed.
K: The planets are pretty identical, but on one there is a great disparity between rich and poor. And on the other there are an abundance of Robin Hoods... and less disparity. Further, let's agree that great disparity is not good.
L: Where do you want to land?
K: Am I rich or poor?
L: It doesn't matter. You agreed that great disparity is not good.
K: Fine. I guess it doesn't matter if Robin Hood or the IRS has spread out the wealth a little. Though it is creepy to have someone sneaking into our house at night.
L: Fortunately, in this age, Robin Hood sits at a computer and withholds a certain percentage from your income. Your dear jewels won't be touched.
K: Whew! Ok, let's land on the Robin Hoods infested planet. Maybe if there is less disparity there will be less crime and more happiness.
L: Hope so.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Confession
K=Kim, P=Priest
K: I'm not perfect.
P: You can say that again.
K: But I try.
P: I'm so glad my brain surgeon didn't tell me about his shortcomings.
K: Isn't the duckbill platypus known for not being perfect?
P: Yes, but unlike the duckbill, you have a brain bigger than a peanut.
K: I'd be a little better if it wasn't for clutching.
P: What's that about?
K: Well, whenever I'm trying to meet a challenge I remember the family dog growling at me when I was a little kid.
P: No kidding?
K: The dog was as big as an elephant... or so I remember, and I'd start to do something and the dog would run over and growl right into my ear. It was horrendous.
P: What did you do then?
K: I'd run and hide under my bed.
P: That sounds wise.
K: Then the dog would jump on the bed.
P: You needed a trap door, didn't you?
K: Yes! Every time I'd start to get out the dog would growl again. I spent half my life under that bed.
P: And the other half?
K: Trying to do things right.
P: You know, your dog is dead, so now you have no excuses.
K: But the growl is still there.
K: I'm not perfect.
P: You can say that again.
K: But I try.
P: I'm so glad my brain surgeon didn't tell me about his shortcomings.
K: Isn't the duckbill platypus known for not being perfect?
P: Yes, but unlike the duckbill, you have a brain bigger than a peanut.
K: I'd be a little better if it wasn't for clutching.
P: What's that about?
K: Well, whenever I'm trying to meet a challenge I remember the family dog growling at me when I was a little kid.
P: No kidding?
K: The dog was as big as an elephant... or so I remember, and I'd start to do something and the dog would run over and growl right into my ear. It was horrendous.
P: What did you do then?
K: I'd run and hide under my bed.
P: That sounds wise.
K: Then the dog would jump on the bed.
P: You needed a trap door, didn't you?
K: Yes! Every time I'd start to get out the dog would growl again. I spent half my life under that bed.
P: And the other half?
K: Trying to do things right.
P: You know, your dog is dead, so now you have no excuses.
K: But the growl is still there.
Please respond!
Last week I mentioned a few moral dilemmas. One was the bystander who could save five lives by throwing one man onto some tracks.
I remember that.
Did the man object?
He didn't have time. The trolley hit him, and stopped.
So are we now done with moral dilemmas.
Yes. I started to realize that the heart is more important than the action.
That's dumb.
Probably. I keep thinking about eating a dumb piece of celery. It is one thing to eat it with disregard. And another to eat it with thanks. So eating it is not the point. Thanking it is.
So is that why you woke me up?
No. I wanted to say something else.
Is that why you wait just long enough before talking that I fall asleep again?
Look. If I dribble, you complain. And if I take time to think, you complain. Maybe we ought to call it quits?
Oh, I'm up now. What do you want to say?
Well, I'll sometimes meet someone and they'll say that they've been reading my blog for years and that they've enjoyed it... but they've never commented.
Well, what's wrong with that?
It kind of makes a lonely world. It is like not telling the celery that you appreciate her gift to you.
Celery is dead. What does it matter?
It does. But I'm now talking about people responding. I'm telling you how I'd like to get on my knees and tell them... "I'd love to hear what you are thinking. I don't know what is going on in your head." And if they are one of the responders... that I appreciate that beyond anything... and if, in the end, they really want to be silent, I appreciate that too. Even if they just put "like" or "dislike" in FB... that is helpful.
Ok, is that it for today.
Yea. (pause) Oh... today I hope to pass 20,000 hits on this blog.
Is that it?
(pause)... Yes.
I remember that.
Did the man object?
He didn't have time. The trolley hit him, and stopped.
So are we now done with moral dilemmas.
Yes. I started to realize that the heart is more important than the action.
That's dumb.
Probably. I keep thinking about eating a dumb piece of celery. It is one thing to eat it with disregard. And another to eat it with thanks. So eating it is not the point. Thanking it is.
So is that why you woke me up?
No. I wanted to say something else.
Is that why you wait just long enough before talking that I fall asleep again?
Look. If I dribble, you complain. And if I take time to think, you complain. Maybe we ought to call it quits?
Oh, I'm up now. What do you want to say?
Well, I'll sometimes meet someone and they'll say that they've been reading my blog for years and that they've enjoyed it... but they've never commented.
Well, what's wrong with that?
It kind of makes a lonely world. It is like not telling the celery that you appreciate her gift to you.
Celery is dead. What does it matter?
It does. But I'm now talking about people responding. I'm telling you how I'd like to get on my knees and tell them... "I'd love to hear what you are thinking. I don't know what is going on in your head." And if they are one of the responders... that I appreciate that beyond anything... and if, in the end, they really want to be silent, I appreciate that too. Even if they just put "like" or "dislike" in FB... that is helpful.
Ok, is that it for today.
Yea. (pause) Oh... today I hope to pass 20,000 hits on this blog.
Is that it?
(pause)... Yes.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Vote Against Prop. 19 (Legalization of Pot)
You have got to be kidding. How can you be against Prop. 19?
It takes a bad situation and makes it worse.
But what about all the people in prison for smoking a joint?
I agree that is a waste of resources. But why do we think that creating any law to solve a problem is better than no law?
Won't Prop. 19 earn California needed revenue?
I doubt it. They will have to hire countless people to regulate pot. And now the courts will be filled with people who don't follow the law. And jails will continue to be filled.
Maybe. But why can't we just pass the law and then next year pass a better one.
Amending laws never have the same effect. Look at the income tax regulations. Every time they get amended we spend more time doing taxes rather than doing business.
So what's wrong with the proposition, anyway?
First, it makes it illegal to sell to anyone under twenty-one. Now we'll have new criminals who sold to someone under twenty-one. That is going to be a fertile market. And I can sell to the kids at an increased market-up to compensate me for my greater risk... or I can buy illegal drugs (less safe?) and put the youngsters at risk.
Oh, I see that. But do you want kids getting high?
Not really. But they are getting high now. What is the difference?
So, what else?
Well, Prop. 19 makes the state government much bigger... and more expensive to run. Under the guise of "freedom," when government gets bigger it really takes away our freedoms.
How come?
Well, for starters, the more we work to pay taxes, the less discretionary income we have.
But this is a good cause.
I'm not sure. You know that the worst chemicals in tobacco are not the nicotine, but rather the toxins from the burning of leaves. The same toxins occur in pot.
Yea... but what about alcohol... that isn't good for us either.
That's another post.
So what do you propose?
Simply to take pot off the list of illegal drugs...
You have got to be kidding.
No. We already have plenty of laws that could be used when one person is endangering another (or their property)... or even when someone is selling something harmful. We need less laws, not more.
Oh...
It takes a bad situation and makes it worse.
But what about all the people in prison for smoking a joint?
I agree that is a waste of resources. But why do we think that creating any law to solve a problem is better than no law?
Won't Prop. 19 earn California needed revenue?
I doubt it. They will have to hire countless people to regulate pot. And now the courts will be filled with people who don't follow the law. And jails will continue to be filled.
Maybe. But why can't we just pass the law and then next year pass a better one.
Amending laws never have the same effect. Look at the income tax regulations. Every time they get amended we spend more time doing taxes rather than doing business.
So what's wrong with the proposition, anyway?
First, it makes it illegal to sell to anyone under twenty-one. Now we'll have new criminals who sold to someone under twenty-one. That is going to be a fertile market. And I can sell to the kids at an increased market-up to compensate me for my greater risk... or I can buy illegal drugs (less safe?) and put the youngsters at risk.
Oh, I see that. But do you want kids getting high?
Not really. But they are getting high now. What is the difference?
So, what else?
Well, Prop. 19 makes the state government much bigger... and more expensive to run. Under the guise of "freedom," when government gets bigger it really takes away our freedoms.
How come?
Well, for starters, the more we work to pay taxes, the less discretionary income we have.
But this is a good cause.
I'm not sure. You know that the worst chemicals in tobacco are not the nicotine, but rather the toxins from the burning of leaves. The same toxins occur in pot.
Yea... but what about alcohol... that isn't good for us either.
That's another post.
So what do you propose?
Simply to take pot off the list of illegal drugs...
You have got to be kidding.
No. We already have plenty of laws that could be used when one person is endangering another (or their property)... or even when someone is selling something harmful. We need less laws, not more.
Oh...
Buddha killed the Pirates?
The Buddha killed a band of pirates. What is that about?
No, it was in one of his previous lives, as told in the Jakata stories.
That's against the vows, isn't it?
Maybe. The Buddha-to-be knew that the pirates were going to sink the ship and kill all the passengers.
So the Buddha killed the pirates to save the passengers?
Apparently not. He was worried about the karmic consequences for the pirates if they were to go through with their plan.
But what about his own karmic consequences for taking a life?
He was willing to forego those to protect the pirates.
So he killed the pirates to save them?
I guess so. Hope he never wants to save me.
Do you have any evil plans?
Not any more.
No, it was in one of his previous lives, as told in the Jakata stories.
That's against the vows, isn't it?
Maybe. The Buddha-to-be knew that the pirates were going to sink the ship and kill all the passengers.
So the Buddha killed the pirates to save the passengers?
Apparently not. He was worried about the karmic consequences for the pirates if they were to go through with their plan.
But what about his own karmic consequences for taking a life?
He was willing to forego those to protect the pirates.
So he killed the pirates to save them?
I guess so. Hope he never wants to save me.
Do you have any evil plans?
Not any more.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Moral Dilemmas 101
So help me out here.
What's wrong now?
You told me about the trolley car, out of control, ready to run over five people.
Yes, that happens every day.
And so the driver, if she could, switches the tracks and the train now runs over only one person.
Right. The driver made a wise choice. Sacrificing one life to save five.
The more difficult dilemma is for the bystander. Does he throw a person onto the tracks to stop the trolley, given if he doesn't, five people will die?
Or maybe he feels that not doing anything is ok?
That's really the issue for me. Is it ok to do nothing?
I don't know. I remember when the man was beat up on the subway tracks in NYC and people just stood around. Imagine if we had laws against inactivity.
Yea... you don't jump in the pool to save the kid... then you could go to jail.
Or you don't learn CPR.
Or... you buy an expensive house rather than a cheap house, thereby diverting money from starving children.
Or... you don't take out a big life insurance policy before throwing yourself infront of the trolley, thereby eliminating a giant good deed to those in need. Is that acceptable and compassionate behavior?
Stay tuned to the next episode of Moral Dilemmas 101
What's wrong now?
You told me about the trolley car, out of control, ready to run over five people.
Yes, that happens every day.
And so the driver, if she could, switches the tracks and the train now runs over only one person.
Right. The driver made a wise choice. Sacrificing one life to save five.
The more difficult dilemma is for the bystander. Does he throw a person onto the tracks to stop the trolley, given if he doesn't, five people will die?
Or maybe he feels that not doing anything is ok?
That's really the issue for me. Is it ok to do nothing?
I don't know. I remember when the man was beat up on the subway tracks in NYC and people just stood around. Imagine if we had laws against inactivity.
Yea... you don't jump in the pool to save the kid... then you could go to jail.
Or you don't learn CPR.
Or... you buy an expensive house rather than a cheap house, thereby diverting money from starving children.
Or... you don't take out a big life insurance policy before throwing yourself infront of the trolley, thereby eliminating a giant good deed to those in need. Is that acceptable and compassionate behavior?
Stay tuned to the next episode of Moral Dilemmas 101
You're too close
You're too close
For me, or for you?
That's just what I mean. Why can't you just say, "yes" and then move away?
Would the reason make any difference?
Of course. Not really.
Let's get back to this "you're just too close."
Fine. When someone says that, it is time to move away.
I know my limitations. I know that I have a tendency to clutch and then slip.
That is your problem.
Yes, and since we are together, it is your problem too.
Now you are really projecting. I'm quite comfortable with our distance.
Eeks... Now I'm really getting worried.
Me tooooooooooooo......
Later, in Segway heaven.
Sure glad we were able to come together.
Yea, I don't want some rookie riding me.
I didn't mean that.
?
Lots of territory to explore here.
Lots of time, though.
Most of my friends are here.
Did they get too close too?
Much later, in God's chambers.
What is that thing you are standing on, my son?
It is a Segway, Mr. God. It is used on Earth to get people from point a to point b.
I gave them legs.
Yes, but through many years of misuse and abuse, they don't work that well.
So you are dependent on a couple of wheels driven by lithium-ion batteries?
Yes.
So why don't you move?
Can't find a place to plug it in.
Sorry about that. So sorry. Maybe now you can learn to walk.
Dedicated to Jimi Heselden, Segway CEO, who road over a cliff 9/26/10.
For me, or for you?
That's just what I mean. Why can't you just say, "yes" and then move away?
Would the reason make any difference?
Of course. Not really.
Let's get back to this "you're just too close."
Fine. When someone says that, it is time to move away.
I know my limitations. I know that I have a tendency to clutch and then slip.
That is your problem.
Yes, and since we are together, it is your problem too.
Now you are really projecting. I'm quite comfortable with our distance.
Eeks... Now I'm really getting worried.
Me tooooooooooooo......
Later, in Segway heaven.
Sure glad we were able to come together.
Yea, I don't want some rookie riding me.
I didn't mean that.
?
Lots of territory to explore here.
Lots of time, though.
Most of my friends are here.
Did they get too close too?
Much later, in God's chambers.
What is that thing you are standing on, my son?
It is a Segway, Mr. God. It is used on Earth to get people from point a to point b.
I gave them legs.
Yes, but through many years of misuse and abuse, they don't work that well.
So you are dependent on a couple of wheels driven by lithium-ion batteries?
Yes.
So why don't you move?
Can't find a place to plug it in.
Sorry about that. So sorry. Maybe now you can learn to walk.
Dedicated to Jimi Heselden, Segway CEO, who road over a cliff 9/26/10.
Monday, October 11, 2010
One sided conversation with Phillipa Foot, RIP
You're up awfully early.
And you're asleep.
You really think we can have a meaningful conversation?
I can try? Who is it that gives our conversations meaning?
Huh?
So here's what I want to discuss?
Shh...
Listen, you told me shh last night. You get one shh every twenty-four hours.
Why?
It is Texas.
Oh. Shoot. But make it quick.
No promises.
Do you realize I fall asleep over and over again?
Yea.
And then get woked. Or is it waked? In any case, the Chinese could hire your as a torture chamber.
This is important.
I said shoot. And... make it fast.
Well, I'm going to ride a Segway today. And I want to know if I lose control and run into a crowd, should I aim for a spot with the least number of people?
Of course. Unless you are overly concerned with the latest census.
Now... if you were a trolley car driver, and your trolley brake was busted and you were barreling down the track, and you could either kill five people, or pull the switch and go down another track and kill one... what would you do?
Oh... this is torture. I'm not a trolley car driver... but if I was and you were the one...
Funny. One more question and you'll get my point. Or not.
Shoot. Aim for my head or the heart, please.
You are a surgeon. You have six patients, five of whom are dying and need a critical and different transplant. And you have one (healthy) patient who has all the needed organs. Unfortunately, he (or she) could not live without them. Would you kill one patient to save five?
Are you the one patient?
(Dedicated to Philippa Foot, great moral philosopher.)
And you're asleep.
You really think we can have a meaningful conversation?
I can try? Who is it that gives our conversations meaning?
Huh?
So here's what I want to discuss?
Shh...
Listen, you told me shh last night. You get one shh every twenty-four hours.
Why?
It is Texas.
Oh. Shoot. But make it quick.
No promises.
Do you realize I fall asleep over and over again?
Yea.
And then get woked. Or is it waked? In any case, the Chinese could hire your as a torture chamber.
This is important.
I said shoot. And... make it fast.
Well, I'm going to ride a Segway today. And I want to know if I lose control and run into a crowd, should I aim for a spot with the least number of people?
Of course. Unless you are overly concerned with the latest census.
Now... if you were a trolley car driver, and your trolley brake was busted and you were barreling down the track, and you could either kill five people, or pull the switch and go down another track and kill one... what would you do?
Oh... this is torture. I'm not a trolley car driver... but if I was and you were the one...
Funny. One more question and you'll get my point. Or not.
Shoot. Aim for my head or the heart, please.
You are a surgeon. You have six patients, five of whom are dying and need a critical and different transplant. And you have one (healthy) patient who has all the needed organs. Unfortunately, he (or she) could not live without them. Would you kill one patient to save five?
Are you the one patient?
(Dedicated to Philippa Foot, great moral philosopher.)
Sunday, October 10, 2010
You Don't Love Me
You shouldn't have turned there. You never remember the way.
You don't love me.
Is it that apparent?
Sometime you hide it rather well.
Like when I do your stinky laundry?
Yes, then, and when you cook omelets.
And that's it. I do those two things just to throw you off.
And it works most of the time. But, by now, I learned to see right through you.
I saw right through you from the day you put twigs in my mud pie.
You were four then. I guess that's why you made me go home... And told me you'd never be my friend.
So you married me for my money.
I was 36 and the time clock was clicking and despite your obnoxious behavior I though of all the possible mates, you probably had the best genes.
You should have gone to the sperm bank.
That's about the best idea you've ever had.
I think we are just about there. Around that curve we'll see the ocean.
I so love it when we go on vacation.
Me too. And get a break from the brats and our work.
Yea...
You don't love me.
Is it that apparent?
Sometime you hide it rather well.
Like when I do your stinky laundry?
Yes, then, and when you cook omelets.
And that's it. I do those two things just to throw you off.
And it works most of the time. But, by now, I learned to see right through you.
I saw right through you from the day you put twigs in my mud pie.
You were four then. I guess that's why you made me go home... And told me you'd never be my friend.
So you married me for my money.
I was 36 and the time clock was clicking and despite your obnoxious behavior I though of all the possible mates, you probably had the best genes.
You should have gone to the sperm bank.
That's about the best idea you've ever had.
I think we are just about there. Around that curve we'll see the ocean.
I so love it when we go on vacation.
Me too. And get a break from the brats and our work.
Yea...
Saturday, October 9, 2010
The Wise Ass Buddha
Mr. Buddha, I've been a total failure.
Tell me more, monk.
My mind wanders, I don't learn the chants, I get angry and impatient and selfish. Need I say more?
No, do not say more.
Can you tell me one thing I could do to cure my ways?
I could.
Will ya?
Yes.
Now?
Sure. Just master your mind.
Easier said than done.
But it is one thing, as you asked, you goof-ball.
Who is it that should master my mind?
Don't play any of those zen games on me. It isn't important.
What kind of Buddha are you? First you say, "master your mind" and
then when I ask who should do the work, you say it isn't important.
To be truthful, I'm not a very good Buddha. I know of no truths or paths
that you do not need to find yourself.
So can you point me to a better Buddha?
Sure, look in the mirror.
Who taught you those wise ass answers?
I see your impatience and anger. Why don't you go off into a cave for nine years and work on your mind.
My mind. Where is my mind?
Go into the cave, and your mind will follow you. Then master it, watching it as it gets lost over and over again.
And who watches it?
You'll find someone, don't worry.
And then what?
That will be enough...
Tell me more, monk.
My mind wanders, I don't learn the chants, I get angry and impatient and selfish. Need I say more?
No, do not say more.
Can you tell me one thing I could do to cure my ways?
I could.
Will ya?
Yes.
Now?
Sure. Just master your mind.
Easier said than done.
But it is one thing, as you asked, you goof-ball.
Who is it that should master my mind?
Don't play any of those zen games on me. It isn't important.
What kind of Buddha are you? First you say, "master your mind" and
then when I ask who should do the work, you say it isn't important.
To be truthful, I'm not a very good Buddha. I know of no truths or paths
that you do not need to find yourself.
So can you point me to a better Buddha?
Sure, look in the mirror.
Who taught you those wise ass answers?
I see your impatience and anger. Why don't you go off into a cave for nine years and work on your mind.
My mind. Where is my mind?
Go into the cave, and your mind will follow you. Then master it, watching it as it gets lost over and over again.
And who watches it?
You'll find someone, don't worry.
And then what?
That will be enough...
Friday, October 8, 2010
LoseIt
I started my diet today.
And yesterday, and the day before.
No, I really did it today. My intentions were solid.
Solid? That's a new one.
Yea, I use this iphone app called LoseIt.
I think you've LostIt.
Hey, let me explain.
I'm listening.
Ok, I was getting impatient with my progress, so I set my goal up to 2 lbs a week from 1.5 lbs a week.
That sounds ambitious.
Too. I couldn't get my calories down for more than one day. I'd just be hungry... you know... ready to eat aannyytthhiinngg.
Ok... then what.
Well, I started out today with my normal taco breakfast at the local Mexican restaurant. A couple of corn tortillas, beans, avocado, and rajas. 250 calories.
Hey, this is getting boring.
No... wait... it gets better.
I didn't get home from breakfast until about 11 am... so I just had peanut butter on a cracker for lunch.
I said this is getting boring.
Shh... Then I went to the market to buy some bananas. I forgot until I got there how many free samples they had. I thought this would just strengthen my character... to walk past potato chips, great cheese and crackers, and hibiscus tea.
But you have willpower, right?
Ya know, as I came into the market, my first thought was that I should have had the sailors tie me to the mast... but then I thought I'm strong... and I'm really into this diet today... and those food sirens won't tempt me.
Wait... what is wrong with hibiscus tea? There can't be any calories to that.
Well, that's what I thought. Especially when I noticed that the woman demonstrating the tea was blind. Blind people don't lie... right?
Never. I've never been lied to by a blind person.
Right. So I drank the tea and told her how good it tasted.
And...
She replied that she had a secret.
We all have secrets. What else is new?
No... a secret about the tea. She confessed that she had added apple juice and agave to it.
No... that's criminal... you could have been diabetic and...
Yea... but worse, I was off the wagon. Off... way off. Went to those potato chips that were free and had a handful... then to the cheese... then to the organic cheerios.
That isn't too bad.
Until I came to the free Henry's frozen custard.
You have got to be kidding.
No... I thought... what can one cup of coffee custard set me back?
How was it?
Great.
Were you done?
I thought so. I saw some mint and asked her about it. She said it was mint with chocolate chip but that all the chips are gone. Who wants mint custard just by itself?
What happened to those poor chips?
She said she didn't know.
And then?
Then she scooped out another cup and there were two beady eyed chips looking right at me.
Don't tell me you ate that too.
Yea...
So what's next?
Tomorrow...
And yesterday, and the day before.
No, I really did it today. My intentions were solid.
Solid? That's a new one.
Yea, I use this iphone app called LoseIt.
I think you've LostIt.
Hey, let me explain.
I'm listening.
Ok, I was getting impatient with my progress, so I set my goal up to 2 lbs a week from 1.5 lbs a week.
That sounds ambitious.
Too. I couldn't get my calories down for more than one day. I'd just be hungry... you know... ready to eat aannyytthhiinngg.
Ok... then what.
Well, I started out today with my normal taco breakfast at the local Mexican restaurant. A couple of corn tortillas, beans, avocado, and rajas. 250 calories.
Hey, this is getting boring.
No... wait... it gets better.
I didn't get home from breakfast until about 11 am... so I just had peanut butter on a cracker for lunch.
I said this is getting boring.
Shh... Then I went to the market to buy some bananas. I forgot until I got there how many free samples they had. I thought this would just strengthen my character... to walk past potato chips, great cheese and crackers, and hibiscus tea.
But you have willpower, right?
Ya know, as I came into the market, my first thought was that I should have had the sailors tie me to the mast... but then I thought I'm strong... and I'm really into this diet today... and those food sirens won't tempt me.
Wait... what is wrong with hibiscus tea? There can't be any calories to that.
Well, that's what I thought. Especially when I noticed that the woman demonstrating the tea was blind. Blind people don't lie... right?
Never. I've never been lied to by a blind person.
Right. So I drank the tea and told her how good it tasted.
And...
She replied that she had a secret.
We all have secrets. What else is new?
No... a secret about the tea. She confessed that she had added apple juice and agave to it.
No... that's criminal... you could have been diabetic and...
Yea... but worse, I was off the wagon. Off... way off. Went to those potato chips that were free and had a handful... then to the cheese... then to the organic cheerios.
That isn't too bad.
Until I came to the free Henry's frozen custard.
You have got to be kidding.
No... I thought... what can one cup of coffee custard set me back?
How was it?
Great.
Were you done?
I thought so. I saw some mint and asked her about it. She said it was mint with chocolate chip but that all the chips are gone. Who wants mint custard just by itself?
What happened to those poor chips?
She said she didn't know.
And then?
Then she scooped out another cup and there were two beady eyed chips looking right at me.
Don't tell me you ate that too.
Yea...
So what's next?
Tomorrow...
Thursday, October 7, 2010
In 99 Years
Her gray hair was thin,
tired of many years
of endless
combing and brushing.
The silvered strands
were expertly cut—
they could not have been
better cared for,
considering her
age.
She smiled for the lens.
Her mouth formed
a polished camera
facial expression.
She had been
on that side
of the lens
many times before—
it was apparent
as she was able to combine
a wry suspicion
with a pseudo-authentic smile,
making it all seem pleasing in the end.
There was a hard,
Eastern-European texture
to her face.
She had not chosen mud
and other beauty facial treatments,
rather had lived an adventurous
yet privileged life.
Her smile said
"I've seem much of life
in 99 years, and,
now it is yours
to enjoy and tend."
She work a black scarf
wrapped around her neck,
giving some dimension
to her very small body.
That sat onto
a poka-dotted shawl,
which was inside,
and partially covered by
another larger shawl,
laced with gold thread.
Her forearms and hands
emerged
from the third shawl.
The arms were larger
than one might expect
coming from
such a petit figure.
These (almost workman) arms,
as familiar
gardening
as editing books,
laid one upon
the other
in a warm gesture.
There was no tension,
but the weight of one arm
on the other
seemed a little more
than she could bear
causing her smile
now to tighten and
not seem
quite as relaxed
as her face
first suggested.
Her skirt exhibited
a similar
but darker dot pattern
to the smaller of the two shawls.
Her legs
appeared to be tired,
at 99,
as they struggled to
hold up her arms,
with dignity,
as a pedestal holds
tirelessly
a death mask.
Goodbye, dear aunt.
tired of many years
of endless
combing and brushing.
The silvered strands
were expertly cut—
they could not have been
better cared for,
considering her
age.
She smiled for the lens.
Her mouth formed
a polished camera
facial expression.
She had been
on that side
of the lens
many times before—
it was apparent
as she was able to combine
a wry suspicion
with a pseudo-authentic smile,
making it all seem pleasing in the end.
There was a hard,
Eastern-European texture
to her face.
She had not chosen mud
and other beauty facial treatments,
rather had lived an adventurous
yet privileged life.
Her smile said
"I've seem much of life
in 99 years, and,
now it is yours
to enjoy and tend."
She work a black scarf
wrapped around her neck,
giving some dimension
to her very small body.
That sat onto
a poka-dotted shawl,
which was inside,
and partially covered by
another larger shawl,
laced with gold thread.
Her forearms and hands
emerged
from the third shawl.
The arms were larger
than one might expect
coming from
such a petit figure.
These (almost workman) arms,
as familiar
gardening
as editing books,
laid one upon
the other
in a warm gesture.
There was no tension,
but the weight of one arm
on the other
seemed a little more
than she could bear
causing her smile
now to tighten and
not seem
quite as relaxed
as her face
first suggested.
Her skirt exhibited
a similar
but darker dot pattern
to the smaller of the two shawls.
Her legs
appeared to be tired,
at 99,
as they struggled to
hold up her arms,
with dignity,
as a pedestal holds
tirelessly
a death mask.
Goodbye, dear aunt.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Beautiful creature
This strange creature was pecking away at something.
Is it a turkey?
It had the most magnificent pattern on its feathers.
Where else but Austin would it be wandering about on its own?
Is it a turkey?
It had the most magnificent pattern on its feathers.
Where else but Austin would it be wandering about on its own?
Allergic to Work
The tall lanky Italian with greasy black hair and a day's growth on his face grunted when the American couple came to his dad's restaurant. "No seats," he said in broken English that might have been the entire extend of his English vocabulary.
"But, you have no customers... look, no one's here."
"No seats, no reser va tions," he asserted sharply, fumbling over the largest word in English that he knew, and not caring for the American's logic.
He then walked into the back room to sit down and finish his glass of wine.
"Who was that?" his dad asked.
"Just a couple of Americanos... we don't need them."
"Don't need them... you want some gas money for that car of yours?"
His dad was a smaller and fatter version of the lanky Italian. In place of the black hair was a polished skull. The father's face turned red as he realized that his son was allergic to work.
The couple walked out, with the tall man remarking to the short woman, "you know, this is why I love traveling to foreign countries... you are treated like s...t."
"Perhaps this just isn't the restaurant for us," the short woman consoled. "Remember, there are two other restaurants in the town... maybe we'll have better luck with one of them."
The Italian man and his father continued to argue. The American couple could hear them as they walked away.
"But, you have no customers... look, no one's here."
"No seats, no reser va tions," he asserted sharply, fumbling over the largest word in English that he knew, and not caring for the American's logic.
He then walked into the back room to sit down and finish his glass of wine.
"Who was that?" his dad asked.
"Just a couple of Americanos... we don't need them."
"Don't need them... you want some gas money for that car of yours?"
His dad was a smaller and fatter version of the lanky Italian. In place of the black hair was a polished skull. The father's face turned red as he realized that his son was allergic to work.
The couple walked out, with the tall man remarking to the short woman, "you know, this is why I love traveling to foreign countries... you are treated like s...t."
"Perhaps this just isn't the restaurant for us," the short woman consoled. "Remember, there are two other restaurants in the town... maybe we'll have better luck with one of them."
The Italian man and his father continued to argue. The American couple could hear them as they walked away.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Battlecry of the Supermarket
Hey Buddy, you have eleven items on the check out belt. Can't you read? It says clearly... very clearly... ten items or less.
Yes, can you count? Do you see that I have a pair of chicken legs. That has got to count as one. One chicken. One. Got it. One.
No way, Buddy. An item is an item. And my meter is running. You want to pick up your stuff or you want to see what this fist feels like on your fat face.
Hey, the manager saw what I had in my cart and told me to get in this line. He obviously knows that chickens have two legs.
Just like people are supposed to have one brain? Maybe the manager needs to go back to school as well.
Oh, here he comes now.
What's up boys?
Didn't you tell me to get in this line?
Why yes, I did.
Hey, Mr. Boss, can't you count? He has eleven items. What are rules for? What are laws for? Why did I fight in your damn blasted war? Why do I carry this piece?
Yes, can you count? Do you see that I have a pair of chicken legs. That has got to count as one. One chicken. One. Got it. One.
No way, Buddy. An item is an item. And my meter is running. You want to pick up your stuff or you want to see what this fist feels like on your fat face.
Hey, the manager saw what I had in my cart and told me to get in this line. He obviously knows that chickens have two legs.
Just like people are supposed to have one brain? Maybe the manager needs to go back to school as well.
Oh, here he comes now.
What's up boys?
Didn't you tell me to get in this line?
Why yes, I did.
Hey, Mr. Boss, can't you count? He has eleven items. What are rules for? What are laws for? Why did I fight in your damn blasted war? Why do I carry this piece?
Men are clueless...
Some men are clueless.
He told me that I'd be so excited.
Why?
He said that he was worried, when he got an occlusal (not ocular!) guard to prevent grinding his teeth at night, he wouldn't be able to talk to me when I'm trying to fall asleep.
Oh... I'm so glad you'll be able to wake me up over and over again, like a Chinese torture, but worse.
Does your guy talk and talk at night? Where do they get that energy?
It isn't energy. It is left-over small anti-brain production. You are lucky that you don't get it all day long.
He told me that I'd be so excited.
Why?
He said that he was worried, when he got an occlusal (not ocular!) guard to prevent grinding his teeth at night, he wouldn't be able to talk to me when I'm trying to fall asleep.
Oh... I'm so glad you'll be able to wake me up over and over again, like a Chinese torture, but worse.
Does your guy talk and talk at night? Where do they get that energy?
It isn't energy. It is left-over small anti-brain production. You are lucky that you don't get it all day long.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Paralysis by Analysis
The NYTimes had an article about Andrew Cuomo this am where he was accused of "paralysis by analysis." Milton Friedman said at one time that we don't make better decisions after about ten minutes of deliberation. My dad said "you can't move too slowly." A week later, when I told him that I shared that with my students and they were having trouble understanding it, he said, "I never heard anything so stupid."
So we are back to the Buddhist skepticism about "views" as something that takes us away from experiences. We used to call that "prejudice." If I think I don't like Jackson Pollock's paintings, and I happen on one that I've never seen... will I be open to it? No, of course not.
The worst thing about analysis (especially the kind that goes on and on) is that we never become comfortable with our decisions. We have thought so much about the possible negative consequences of our proposed actions that we can't ever be 100% sure it was the right path.
Someone figured out that our unconscious makes decisions about 1/10th of a second before our conscious mind is aware of that decision. Then we conjure up an argument to defend our heart.
One of the aspects I like about improv theater is that there isn't time to procrastinate. One has to respond now. Right now. Imagine if Mr. Cuomo did that.
So we are back to the Buddhist skepticism about "views" as something that takes us away from experiences. We used to call that "prejudice." If I think I don't like Jackson Pollock's paintings, and I happen on one that I've never seen... will I be open to it? No, of course not.
The worst thing about analysis (especially the kind that goes on and on) is that we never become comfortable with our decisions. We have thought so much about the possible negative consequences of our proposed actions that we can't ever be 100% sure it was the right path.
Someone figured out that our unconscious makes decisions about 1/10th of a second before our conscious mind is aware of that decision. Then we conjure up an argument to defend our heart.
One of the aspects I like about improv theater is that there isn't time to procrastinate. One has to respond now. Right now. Imagine if Mr. Cuomo did that.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
A very strange posting.
A very strange posting. I feel like I came in on the middle of the movie.
I'm not sure there is anything else but the middle of the movie. We only walk into conversations, events, experiences. We don't do much else.
We sit on a couch, talk to a person. Both are others.
I'm not sure that there is always a big difference between ourselves and others, though couches can be more comfortable if you are looking for a place to sit down.
And they are always there for you.
Yes, and they never contradict you... or say that they are clueless about what you are getting at.
So you'd like to be hitched to a couch?
Sometimes, until I try to get it to move.
I'm not sure there is anything else but the middle of the movie. We only walk into conversations, events, experiences. We don't do much else.
We sit on a couch, talk to a person. Both are others.
I'm not sure that there is always a big difference between ourselves and others, though couches can be more comfortable if you are looking for a place to sit down.
And they are always there for you.
Yes, and they never contradict you... or say that they are clueless about what you are getting at.
So you'd like to be hitched to a couch?
Sometimes, until I try to get it to move.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Turn off the Fan
"In reality all of our problems are nothing more than a failure to accept things as they are."
So why change things? Why don't we just accept the shit hitting the fan?
Because we can turn off the fan?
Guess so.
Bodhisattva vow is to save all sentient beings. Seems a whole lot easier to just accept suffering.
Maybe we end suffering by helping people realize that they create suffering by wanting things to be different than they are?
Maybe?
AA got it right, "God, grant me the serenity: To accept the things I cannot change; ... mind to accept that which cannot be changed; courage to change that which can be changed."
Oh!
So why change things? Why don't we just accept the shit hitting the fan?
Because we can turn off the fan?
Guess so.
Bodhisattva vow is to save all sentient beings. Seems a whole lot easier to just accept suffering.
Maybe we end suffering by helping people realize that they create suffering by wanting things to be different than they are?
Maybe?
AA got it right, "God, grant me the serenity: To accept the things I cannot change; ... mind to accept that which cannot be changed; courage to change that which can be changed."
Oh!
Especially one who can't fly.
That's fortunate.
Yes, no one drowned her.
She's a good swimmer, like all bird dogs.
Hound dogs I can understand.
But why would a bird bark?
No, a bird dog is for hunting birds.
Why do you need a dog? Especially one who can't fly.
I can't sleep when the dog barks.
That's why the dog barks. She's alerting you of eminent danger.
I don't want to be alerted. I don't care if king kong is in the yard.
Sleep is more important.
I'll talk to the beast. Maybe she can refrain when just you are endangered.
Thanks.
You're welcome.
Part Salesman
Oh no you don't. I'm asleep.
Asleep. You hardly did anything today.
But I get tired lying here. TV makes me sleepy.
Why do you turn it on?.
You left it on, silly.
I can't imagine that.
So how was your day?
You know, same old, same old.
Same old what?
They told me that I needed to sell more parts.
So what's wrong with that... a little motivation?
Can I help it if people aren't losing their limbs as much these days?
You could help things along.
How? By using a machette?
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Sometimes Anger is Necessary... NOT!
Again, someone used that phrase, "sometimes anger is necessary." And again it hit me hard... like something is wrong but I can't figure out what. Just like the people who pay the minimum on their credit cards. Who cares that the interest is stupendous. They are living now, not tomorrow. I've never had a late bill... but others... Someday, someone will explain what is wrong with that.
In the meantime, I figured out the error in logic with the statement "sometimes anger is necessary." Well, the error is in the logic that anger is justified because good things may come from it.
Tonight I thought about jumping out of a tree to scare someone walking on a dark path. What I didn't know (this is all pretend) that the person (a woman) was partially paralyzed for many years and doctors could not help her. So, with only evil intent, I jumped out of the tree, and she saw me coming and ran out of the way. Her paralysis was no more. Now... was my scaring her a good thing? Of course not. Did it have a good result? Yes.
We don't need anger. Sometimes good comes from it... but generally it just breeds war. My friend sent me an article, Major cyber attack on Iran cripples its industries. His friend sent it to him, with the comment, "great news, for a change." I wrote back that it is never good news when we hurt one another. Maybe the least of all possible evils, but no, not good news. That's sadistic (and there I go with judging my fellow man).
Supposedly the martial art warriors know that anger will not help them. Do they know something that we don't? Enough said?
In the meantime, I figured out the error in logic with the statement "sometimes anger is necessary." Well, the error is in the logic that anger is justified because good things may come from it.
Tonight I thought about jumping out of a tree to scare someone walking on a dark path. What I didn't know (this is all pretend) that the person (a woman) was partially paralyzed for many years and doctors could not help her. So, with only evil intent, I jumped out of the tree, and she saw me coming and ran out of the way. Her paralysis was no more. Now... was my scaring her a good thing? Of course not. Did it have a good result? Yes.
We don't need anger. Sometimes good comes from it... but generally it just breeds war. My friend sent me an article, Major cyber attack on Iran cripples its industries. His friend sent it to him, with the comment, "great news, for a change." I wrote back that it is never good news when we hurt one another. Maybe the least of all possible evils, but no, not good news. That's sadistic (and there I go with judging my fellow man).
Supposedly the martial art warriors know that anger will not help them. Do they know something that we don't? Enough said?
So I ask again, what might be the compassionate response to this very special buddha?
This guy has been going into people's driveways at night and checking their inspection sticker and license tag to see if they are up to date. When they are not, he scrawls on their windshield, "I don't care if you are broke don't drive if u are! Don't be a bitch get it
fixed. I can't believe u can drive illegal!! If ur going to own it get it
inspected or I'll get it towed."
He's being called a "creep, weirdo, and idiot."
I asked our neighbor e-list if there might be a compassionate response that we might make.
When we lash out it feels that we are perpetuating anger.
Which reminds me of the story of Job, who lost everything but still had faith. This man may have lost his faith as well.
Then there is the Buddhist description of the odds of being born human. "The likelihood of a half-blind turtle, rising from the depths of the ocean to the surface once in a hundred years, putting its head through the hole in the yoke is considered greater than that of a being in saṃsāra achieving rebirth as a human." That's how special is each person. It would take more than a creep, weirdo, and idiot to achieve such an accomplishment. We should bow to them.
So are we talking about sin here? Is this man a sinner, trying to right the sins of those who don't follow the law?
So I ask again, what might be the compassionate response to this very special buddha?
fixed. I can't believe u can drive illegal!! If ur going to own it get it
inspected or I'll get it towed."
He's being called a "creep, weirdo, and idiot."
I asked our neighbor e-list if there might be a compassionate response that we might make.
When we lash out it feels that we are perpetuating anger.
Which reminds me of the story of Job, who lost everything but still had faith. This man may have lost his faith as well.
Then there is the Buddhist description of the odds of being born human. "The likelihood of a half-blind turtle, rising from the depths of the ocean to the surface once in a hundred years, putting its head through the hole in the yoke is considered greater than that of a being in saṃsāra achieving rebirth as a human." That's how special is each person. It would take more than a creep, weirdo, and idiot to achieve such an accomplishment. We should bow to them.
So are we talking about sin here? Is this man a sinner, trying to right the sins of those who don't follow the law?
So I ask again, what might be the compassionate response to this very special buddha?
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
I Remember That
I did a one day sit with Robert Kennedy Roshi, a Jesuit Priest/Buddhist Roshi/psychoanalyst/former professor. I'd been told that he was good... and I trusted the source, so I went with a friend to San Antonio to see for myself.
The hours of the "sesshin" were not as advertised, so when we got there we discovered that everyone was sitting. We waited for the short 25 minute to be over so we could join the group in kinhin (walking meditation). Though I had seen a picture of him of the web, I couldn't recognize him.
My friend had black pants and a black shirt with white spots. He asked me when he got into my car if I thought his shirt was too lively for the sesshin. No, I said, this guy is pretty cool.
So I looked over the group walking. In the official zen world a priest would have a robe. No, noone had a robe, even the priest who ran the zendo. But everyone was in black, even yours truly. Everyone, that is, except a tall gray-haired man with kaki pants (w/rolled up cuffs) and a patterned shirt. Clearly this would not be Kennedy Roshi. He should have a robe and a collar and maybe a patch over one eye... not kaki pants and a patterned shirt.
So, you guessed it... it was him, in all his splendor.
I'm now listening to some of his talks on CDs that I purchased. He told an interesting story about Bodhidharma, who supposedly said that if a monk only studied and copied the teachings then he could be killed because there was no need for him. We need people with insight. Yea... not to the killing, but with that the point of view. How it might change education?
When I was in college my friend Susan said that if two people say the same thing, there is only need for one of them. I don't remember too many things that friends told me almost 50 years ago... but I remember that.
The hours of the "sesshin" were not as advertised, so when we got there we discovered that everyone was sitting. We waited for the short 25 minute to be over so we could join the group in kinhin (walking meditation). Though I had seen a picture of him of the web, I couldn't recognize him.
My friend had black pants and a black shirt with white spots. He asked me when he got into my car if I thought his shirt was too lively for the sesshin. No, I said, this guy is pretty cool.
So I looked over the group walking. In the official zen world a priest would have a robe. No, noone had a robe, even the priest who ran the zendo. But everyone was in black, even yours truly. Everyone, that is, except a tall gray-haired man with kaki pants (w/rolled up cuffs) and a patterned shirt. Clearly this would not be Kennedy Roshi. He should have a robe and a collar and maybe a patch over one eye... not kaki pants and a patterned shirt.
So, you guessed it... it was him, in all his splendor.
I'm now listening to some of his talks on CDs that I purchased. He told an interesting story about Bodhidharma, who supposedly said that if a monk only studied and copied the teachings then he could be killed because there was no need for him. We need people with insight. Yea... not to the killing, but with that the point of view. How it might change education?
When I was in college my friend Susan said that if two people say the same thing, there is only need for one of them. I don't remember too many things that friends told me almost 50 years ago... but I remember that.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
He Flew Ten Feet in the Air
I went to this revival meeting Sunday. Well, not on purpose. I went to my improv class, forgetting that it was cancelled because Tami, our teacher, was doing a gig in Hawaii, and then passed by this guy singing great gospel music behind the storefront theater,
and then they invited anyone to speak about god, and I should have, but I didn't, but then a guy stood up (the one in the blue shirt) and said that he didn't speak very often but then he told the story of how four months ago he was walking across the street and he was hit by a car and flew ten feet into the air and landed on a windshield and walked away toward home and the cop stopped him and asked him where he was going and he said home so they know where I died if that is what will happen to him and the cop said he needed to go the hospital and he said "by what office do you say that" and then he woke up in the hospital and the docs said he'd never walk... after doing the MRI and how "it is just a program" and the angel came and god came and now he can walk and yada yada yada...
Friday, September 24, 2010
What Sits
When Socrates was on trial he said that the philosopher would welcome death because then they could see clearly without being mislead by the desires of the body. Buddhists appear to take a very different approach that there isn't a duality. They use the expression "not one, not two." There is a Buddhist "mind," but it is one of the sense apparatus. Who receives the sense information? Is it the body? The whole swarm?
Probably. Or not.
On a different note, my friend claims there is no room for humor given the sad state of affairs in the world. He is implying that the state of affairs is worse than what it was at other times. Is it?
Buddhists talk about big mind and little mind. I think big mind can laugh when it is stuck in traffic... or when they get a new car and see that a falling pecan made a rust colored mark in the shiny paint. Laugh. How? Perhaps understanding the impermanence of the new car. Perhaps realizing that the pecan has a life too... and part of that life might be to mark a car. Perhaps by seeing events from every perspective.
I was thinking the other day that your little mind is in my big mind, and my little mind is in your big mind. Then the next day I thought that my little mind is in my big mind, all of which is one with everything else. We look at an animal and we don't separate their mind and body. We even look at people and we see them as unified forces (even if they are swarms). Why is it so difficult for us to see ourselves in the same way?
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
To Be Human
Maybe it makes more sense to speak of when we are human. When are we doing higher level activites that animals don't do? And who knows if that is really being human. Are we human when we love but not when we hate? Are we human when we resolve our differences peacefully rather than with war? Somehow I think of love/hate and peace/war as human characteristics, for they have prevailed throughout our history.
We behave like other animals much of the time. We are hard-wired, it seems, to fulfill certain instinctual needs. But we do a couple of things that other animals may not do: understand and create.
A dog hears a noise outside and runs to the window to investigate. He sees a cat and scares it out of the yard. So the dog did gain understanding and created change (the cat leaving) in its environment? Is this what we do when we tackle the challenges of our lives. Do we ever move to high levels? How about when we do art? Or are we just a different model of computer with a different processor and operating system?
I don't know? Can anyone help here?
Monday, September 20, 2010
Funny Business
A few weeks ago I decided that I wasn't interested in the comedy part of improv comedy, but rather in the improv part. Then Wednesday night I went to an improv performance, and saw people having lots of fun. I hardly laughed, though, because I'm over 60 and everyone else was under 30 (well, almost) and why should I laugh when I've seen the other side of life.
What can be funny when people you love die, or... or...
But then on the other hand, I like jokes and send them to friends.
The other night I saw a friend laughing. He's going to become a Buddhist priest in a couple of months. I (jokingly) told him he couldn't laugh anymore once he became a priest. That's when I discovered I'm going be out of town when he gets ordained. A bummer.
All day I kept thinking that I wanted to write something funny. I've been caring for a guy who just had a bypass operation... and then an infection on the wound. It has been a hard ordeal for him and me. I told each of my kids that it was "interesting" and they both asked why. I said I didn't know.
Monks beg to give people an opportunity to give. When I learned that I didn't quite believe it. Now I do.
But funny. How can we be funny in the world as it is? With that elephant of death lurking in the corner. Yikes... he's in the middle of the room.
How could James Thurber have had so much fun while a war was going on?
So what's so funny.
Reminds me about the time when our daughter was so mad at us. She went up to her room and slammed the door. Then she wrote a note to us and opened the door, taped it to the door, and slammed it again. We went up stairs and read the note: "I hate you both and if you laugh at this note I'm never ever talk to you again."
I'm glad that stage passed. She's now such a wonderful part of our lives.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Don't Tread on Me, Time-Warner
I wanted to return a modem for a sick friend to Time-Warner. I did an online chat with them and the woman told me that they could pick it up from me, considering the circumstances... but that I'd have to call to arrange that.
I called the number they gave me... and they said they'd send a box. The only problem was that they would only send the box to his old address (not to me), so that wouldn't help. I kept saying "why would you want to send a box to an address where he used to live." And then, I spoke to a supervisor, and then I spoke to his supervisor. All three said that it is policy to send boxes to old addresses, not new ones. I asked if they were human beings and if they realized how absurd was this policy. I lost it. I leaked (Buddhist term).
Finally I gave up and drove the box to their office. The woman there was very very nice, and the modem is returned and I have a receipt. And I found at their office this poster advertising my next match.
Don't Tread on Me, Time-Warner
My four year old grandson called me when I got home. I told him the story. Without asking for his opinion, he simply said, "why don't you use an old box?"
I called the number they gave me... and they said they'd send a box. The only problem was that they would only send the box to his old address (not to me), so that wouldn't help. I kept saying "why would you want to send a box to an address where he used to live." And then, I spoke to a supervisor, and then I spoke to his supervisor. All three said that it is policy to send boxes to old addresses, not new ones. I asked if they were human beings and if they realized how absurd was this policy. I lost it. I leaked (Buddhist term).
Finally I gave up and drove the box to their office. The woman there was very very nice, and the modem is returned and I have a receipt. And I found at their office this poster advertising my next match.
Don't Tread on Me, Time-Warner
Phil Gable Memorial
Last night we had a small memorial service for Phil Gable, a priest recently ordained at the Austin Zen Center. In Buddhist memorials, the sangha is invited to speak to the "departed" (remembering that there is no birth or death). I spoke first and forgot to do that, speaking about him. In any case, I told how, though he was a great warrior, he found something (that which takes our skin and bones) who was faster on the draw. Phil wrote the book, The Source, for which I did many illustrations. You can see these illustrations starting with http://mrkimmosleywrite.blogspot.com/2009/07/hearing-words.html (click on new post to go through the illustrations... there are about 90).
After the book is edited it will be posted in blog form with the illustrations. Paula, his angelic wife, sent this picture of Phil with his family. He is in the center with his dog.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Life on Earth
Yesterday I dragged my wife down to a car dealer that was apparently willing to sell us a car for much less than another dealer that we had actually decided to go with. So we agreed with the new dealer on the car... and even accepted a color I didn't like... and then got down to brass tacks. Turns out that we were talking about different models, so the price wasn't really lower... and they didn't have the car... and my wife (who hates all of this kind of stuff) was furious at me for dragging her through all of this... so we ended up going to her favorite restaurant for dinner (and hardly talked). I then decided to get a still different car that she didn't like and didn't want to drive. Then we went home, and I started reading reviews on the car she didn't like (and I did), and went back to the car we had agreed on... except with a different interior color... and all's well.
So Thoreau said, "most men live lives of quiet desperation." There it is, in one paragraph. Is it the stuff of life? It is times like these that I want a lobotomy to clear out my memory.
Oh, back to the truth. Here it is... and you will probably be disappointed.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
An Inconvenient Truth
They can discuss the pie in the sky, but then reality sets in.
Debt is a very slippery slope. Some pay each month the minimum on their credit card bill, as they increase the balance. It is hard to see the fallacy in this behavior, esp. since it worked last month, and last year, and... And in the end they'll either get that job they've dreamed of... or go bankrupt... or become "dust."
Is a new car the best deal? Or is it better to buy the worst half of the life of a car for 3/4 of the new price? And by buying a new car they get to choose the color/model/accessories.
Money. We talk about money until we are red. The elephant? In the end we don't "make" money unless we are counterfeiters or the government. We exchange it. Tit for tat. We give a part of our life for it. And then we give it for some part of someone else's life. Or maybe for some part of the earth that someone "claimed." It is the game Monopoly except... we believe it.
Monday, August 23, 2010
More on Parenting
A teacher ed professor (who had been in the business a long time) once pointed out in a meeting that some researcher had good and bad teachers teach with all kinds of methodologies, and guess what? it didn't make a difference what teaching methodologies they used. Good teachers were successful and bad teachers were not.
In the same way, I suspect that some parents will hardly lift a finger for their kids, and others will do anything (and more). And (most importantly) some kids will do well and others will have a hard time.
My mother gave a lecture about the rights of parents (50+ years ago). She was a strong believer that kids shouldn't rule their parents, and also that the parents need to listen to themselves rather than the "experts."
I feel like I'm sinking in this picture. And that the tar balls are all over... but they are kind of illuminators rather than poison.
Have a nice day!
My mother gave a lecture about the rights of parents (50+ years ago). She was a strong believer that kids shouldn't rule their parents, and also that the parents need to listen to themselves rather than the "experts."
I feel like I'm sinking in this picture. And that the tar balls are all over... but they are kind of illuminators rather than poison.
Have a nice day!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Too Close
Robert Genn writes:
"Also, I want to mention the extreme expectations that current parents have for their children. Children have taken on a god-like role and have become the focus for everything from prepping for stellar futures to daily parental companionship. Parents sacrifice their own lives for the potential brilliance of kids. For better or for worse, raising kids well is the new religion."
My parents weren't into this, but a lot of today's parents are. They don't call it "indulging" but rather "love." A previous generation gave everything to the job. We really try to run ourselves ragged, don't we? Why?
Did you know that sometimes octopuses (there are three plural forms of the word octopus — octopi, optopuses, and octopodes) die of nervous exhaustion?
"Also, I want to mention the extreme expectations that current parents have for their children. Children have taken on a god-like role and have become the focus for everything from prepping for stellar futures to daily parental companionship. Parents sacrifice their own lives for the potential brilliance of kids. For better or for worse, raising kids well is the new religion."
My parents weren't into this, but a lot of today's parents are. They don't call it "indulging" but rather "love." A previous generation gave everything to the job. We really try to run ourselves ragged, don't we? Why?
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Innocent!
Judge: So you think you are innocent, huh?
Joe: Yea, until proven guilty.
Prosecutor: Did you steal that donut?
Joe: Innocent.
Prosecutor: Until proven guilty?
Joe: Yea. What do you think, I'm an expert on the law?
Judge: You know right from wrong, don't ya?
Joe: Right from left, on a good day.
Prosecutor: Do you frequent donut shops?
Joe: Doesn't everyone?
Judge: Please answer the question directly.
Joe: Frequently.
Prosecutor: This tape shows you putting a donut in your pocket? Did you do that?
Joe: Innocent.
Judge: Until proven guilty. Dismissed!
P.S. I woke up in the middle of the night with the fallacy here. The phrase is: "presume innocent." It is not to say that you are "innocent until proven guilty" but rather presumed, which is almost like... "no matter whether you are innocent or guilty, we will assume for now that you are innocent."
Joe: Yea, until proven guilty.
Prosecutor: Did you steal that donut?
Prosecutor: Until proven guilty?
Joe: Yea. What do you think, I'm an expert on the law?
Judge: You know right from wrong, don't ya?
Joe: Right from left, on a good day.
Prosecutor: Do you frequent donut shops?
Joe: Doesn't everyone?
Judge: Please answer the question directly.
Joe: Frequently.
Prosecutor: This tape shows you putting a donut in your pocket? Did you do that?
Joe: Innocent.
Judge: Until proven guilty. Dismissed!
P.S. I woke up in the middle of the night with the fallacy here. The phrase is: "presume innocent." It is not to say that you are "innocent until proven guilty" but rather presumed, which is almost like... "no matter whether you are innocent or guilty, we will assume for now that you are innocent."
Friday, August 13, 2010
Getting Hitched
In any case, with my daughter getting engaged, I started wondering (outloud) why do people get married anyway? It seems curious that we seem to be hardwired to go along certain paths, some of which are not always that easy. We grow up thinking we'll go to college, get a career, get married, have kids, see the kids get married, and say "congratulations."
Why? Why don't we say "congratulations" to someone who decides to live on the street? Why do we believe that there is but one path. Is there only one way to live life, and if you don't follow that path then something is wrong with you?
As I looked around the restaurant, I started to see everyone being driven by their primal needs and desires. They were eating (hopefully because they were hungry), they were going to the restroom (supposedly to eliminate), they were dressed attractively (perhaps to sexually titillate others), and they were talking (perhaps in anticipation of some sexual union). And then there is the exchange of food for money (what is that about?).
What is all this about?
It is so interesting that we haven't progressed much from the first humans on earth. Our technology provides countless comforts and conveniences. But what is really different?
Just wondering...
Monday, August 9, 2010
For whom did I vote in 2008?
Engaged
I don't remember. Sometimes people say this because they are ashamed or embarrassed. With me it is not the case. And sometimes people know the name of the person who they voted for, but the candidate changed so much pre to post election that they can honestly don't know for whom they had voted. That also is not the problem, though we haven't "had" many of the presidents that kept their promises.
I was torn between three candidates. One had great charisma and came from my old neighborhood. His kids even went to my grade school. It seemed like he'd be a real president and that he'd bring the country together. And he would get us out of wars. The second seemed to share my idea that the government that does the least rules the best. I agreed with him (though politically incorrect) that our economy was fundamentally sound. But I didn't like his anger or his sarcasm. The third candidate shared many of my views (I'm a libertarian with a small "l"), but he was unlikely to win. So voting for him was (for me) throwing a vote away.
As you see, I was totally undecided, and I saw no good way to decide, other than to go to the polls at the end of the day, going into the poll booth and vote. I don't even remember whether it was electronic voting or one of those punch the hole deals. (Excuse: I was also dealing with a job with numerous responsibilities and voting was not one of my top priorities.) And would my vote matter? Though there have been some significant elections where one vote made a difference (like the first time Hitler was elected into his first position of power), I didn't think (in my heart) that my vote would make much of a difference.
Late in the day I went to the St. Louis nursing home down the street where we did our voting. Or it could have even been in Austin (according to my wife). That's how little I remember. No... I just got a "visual." It was the nursing home. Maybe I should have been a resident?
The guy in front of me (or maybe behind me) and I started talking. (I love to start conversations when I'm waiting in line). Totally improperly, I asked him for whom was he going to vote. He told me some story about how his overtime was taken away from him and one of candidates, if elected, would restore the candidate. I suspect that must have been Mr. Obama.
I remember thinking that it wouldn't make a hill of beans difference to me who won, but it might bring more money to this kid if his candidate won. And maybe he had a sick kid who needed some operation... etc.
So I went into the polling booth... and that's where my memory ends. My only chance to remember might be to go to a hypnotist.
And now this all brings up another question. What would I do now? Subject for another post.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Morality
If there is a heaven and hell, one might think that the profiteers would go to hell and those that put the public good first would go to heaven. I know a hard working plumber named Frank. He charges a fair price and does a good job because he knows that a good reputation is his best chance for success. He takes his money and buys a boat and clothes for his wife. Frank doesn't give a hoot for the underdog. And he makes sure that his plumbing works, because he doesn't want to be called back to do the same job twice. Is he a moral person? Frank never gives a penny to charity. Frank doesn't even care if the underprivileged get food or shelter.
Where will Frank go when he dies? Yet, when Frank does his good work, people consider him a "godsend."
I know another plumber named Joe. He goes to church every Sunday and gives 1/10 of his income to the church. Joe is a "first class slob." Most of the jobs he does need to be redone by Frank. His church tells him that he is a moral person and that heaven is assured because of his tithing. Is it?
Do we choose vendors (restaurants, barbers, mechanics) because they are moral, or because they do a good job? Do we really care that their mission is to make money (and the more the merrier)? Could the world function without any "morality" or "compassion"?
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Argument
I just watched Michael Moore's Capitalism: A Love Story and was glad to know that we do have a good alternative to capitalism (democracy). How exactly this would play out is left, I suspect, to Michael's next blockbuster.
My neighbor said that he thought the only problem with capitalism is that it isn't alway moral and that what we need is moral capitalism, where profit isn't the main goal. This seems a little like phone sex, or maybe phone sex where you talk about nothing but the weather. The beauty of capitalism is that if you are focused on profit and your customer is a shopper, in the end both will be served well. Here is an interesting discussion on Morality and Capitalism.
So why did capitalism almost tank the country? Why did banks take risks that in hindsight looked foolish. Was this a fault of capitalism? Did the banks know that no one would let them fail? Did they play us to the hilt? I don't know.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Complaints
Are complaints on the other side of gratitude? Recently found myself getting upset about the small things: miso soup that tasted like dirty water, fire alarms that go off at 430am making our room flash like we were from Star Trek. Was it a matter that I had not eaten a wholesome meal for am few days, or that my wife was so startled by the flashing room that she hurt her back getting out of bed? So things were not the way I wanted them to be. Who said they were supposed to?
Note about picture: Worked a week on this with the ipad... then got frustrated that it was taking so long so I started working on it in Photoshop for another week.
The oil leak has been stopped. What can I do with my wory brain now?
Saturday the priest talked about how we take it personally when bad things happen to us. The miso soup, obviously prepared especially for me, and the defective alarm system... obviously programmed for my wife's entertainment. So what happens when we realize that the bad stuff of life is not directed to us, but is just a product of "things as they are?" We'll see.
Note about picture: Worked a week on this with the ipad... then got frustrated that it was taking so long so I started working on it in Photoshop for another week.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Gravity is an Illusion
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
M's Shadow and Haiti
that his shadow
wasn't him.
He sat
all weekend long
looking at his shadow,
and realized
he didn't know
at what
he was looking.
Was it him,
or was the light
surrounding the shadow,
him?
We look at ourselves.
Seemingly impossible
except
in a hall of mirrors.
Crazy stuff? Maybe.
And yet others
in Haiti
hold a cloth
over their kids' mouths
when the smelly diesel trucks
drive down the road
next to their tents.
There is so much
rubble
that if there were
1000 trucks
removing it every day,
it would take
two or three years
before it was gone.
(And there are
only 200-300 trucks.)
And some of us
try to figure out
if they are their shadow,
or the light
around their shadow,
or neither,
or both.
What would a
Martian
say?
Sunday, July 11, 2010
More on Privilege and Busing
And today I read about the current conditions in Haiti. It reminds me of the use of the continuum that we would use over and over again to describe situations in my last job at a college. Privilege is a continuum, with the displaced people in Haiti towards one end, and me towards the other end. Someone with little privilege has such a little chance to be thinking of much more than whether or not a car or truck will smash into their tent situated between two lanes of a road. For me, I had support all along, laced with both love and intelligence. I always had what I needed, and was only limited by my diligence.
Kate suggested in her comment to my last post "busing" (can be one "s" or two, in case you are interested). I remember that a number of kids were bused to my daughter's nearby (and then thriving) school. The school created special classes for the under prepared students, and in the mornings and afternoons these students always hung out together. Were they better off? Now they were in an environment where they were not as good as the others.
There are no simple solutions, but there are entire school districts who are able to close the achievement gap. Supposedly it takes three years of excellent teaching to make a difference for a kid. It is a slow process, and unfortunately, the success of "best practices" are sometimes hard to replicate. Years ago, one education professor told me about one study where both successful and unsuccessful teachers were told to employ a variety of strategies in their teaching. Guess what? The successful teachers continued to succeed, and the unsuccessful teachers did not.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Questions on Education
I don’t ever recall taking out a loan for my K – 12 education. That is not the education cost we are talking about here is it?
I was amazed to find out that in Washington DC over $13000 $25000 is being spent per K-12 student (the highest in the country) and yet the schools are failing. Kate, you are taking out a loan when schools fail. It costs everyone when kids grow up and are not productive. So there are loans and there are loans... and they all cost us money. See the article in the NYTimes 7/9/2010 for more on expenses in education.
I think people pay for that early education in various other ways, but they don’t take out a personal $50,000 loan for the first semester of 8th grade. So while I would agree that teaching in the public education system seems like a very demanding job, I don’t think students getting personal loans from a bank to pay for education is a better alternative than collecting taxes to fund a public system to which more people have access.
Much of the public system is failing. Some are working their hearts out to improve it. Another alternative is to dispense the funds to the students, and let them and their parents choose where they will go to school. Competition is needed in the school marketplace. Though I have to admit that some of the charter and voucher schools have not done as well as I expected.
I think it is good to ask why the cost of a college education is so high when it seems that the current job market more and more requires people to have this costly education in order to work. Why do we have to buy financial security?
Should financial security be an entitlement? Even if a country could afford that, I'm not sure it would promote either happiness or any other worthwhile accomplishment. Do you?
I do not believe that the only way to cut the cost of college education is to cut teacher salaries. (You are really going to have to work to prove that one to me.) Why is it that our society can offer K-12 public education, but huge personal cost keeps people from higher education?
Oh, it is not just teacher salaries. There are many administrators and other staff. Too many people on the payroll. State universities and community colleges are largely supported by taxpayers, as are K-12 public schools. I think loan programs are a great way to give everyone a chance to obtain higher degrees.
Why do some colleges not accept federal funding available to students? Might there be benefit to a college if they push loans from a given financial institution even if they are not in the best interest of a student?
I know nothing about this... unless you are talking about some for-profit trade schools.
In a way, college education is mirroring the housing market. You got these educational institutions that are selling knowledge at a relatively high price and one can only obtain this knowledge if one takes out a loan. In many cases, you don’t have a ton of options as to what kind of loan you can get because the school dictates that; just like reverse redlining dictates what kind of loan you have to get in order to obtain shelter in a given area. And these kinds of situations lead to loans that in many cases are inflated and ridiculous.
Community colleges are a good option for many. I hope that educational institutions do more than sell knowledge. Knowledge is everywhere. There is more knowledge than air. What the institutions should be "teaching" is how to put you finger up in the air and feel which way the wind is blowing.
Thanks Kate!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Student Loans
Uncle Sam (US) is now taking over student loans from banks. They will be still making a profit, and will put that profit into supporting community colleges and other educational institutions. And they will never raise loan rates when interest rates go up, like the banks do.
The article in the UT newspaper claimed this was a win-win situation for both US and the students... and the public at large.
The apparent brilliance of this act raised a number of questions in my mind. If Uncle Sam can run the student loan business more efficiently than banks, then could they also run most other businesses more efficiently as well? Clothing, home improvement stores, toys, art, oil drilling. What is their track record?
I assume that the banks will need less workers now that they aren't doing student loans. Will these workers now be hired by Uncle Sam? I assume too that the banks will not need bailing out again, given that one of their income sources has been curtailed.
If US is not able to actually run this loan business more efficiently then we must assume that they are (or will be) subsidizing it, especially when interest rates rise and loan rates do not. Is this still going to be a win-win-win situation?
Who are these brilliant business people who have shunned bank CEO wages to work for US? What do they know that people being paid 100x as much do not know?
There is an implication, as well, that banks have been "screwing" students with high interest rates. This message is bothersome to me, especially as we start to believe that banks and all other institutions that make a profit are in essence taking advantage of their clientele. The banking industry has provided the possibility for education for millions of kids. They have done countless good and should not be labeled a thief.
I suspect that, in the end, this program will cost the taxpayers untold dollars.
Can the US really charge less and still turn a profit? Can I jump over the moon?
Sunday, July 4, 2010
The Blackboard
The Buddhists used to think of night as the beginning of the next day. And when we are born our minds are blank. As we live, our minds become repositories for all our numerous experiences. Loves come in and out and cements those experiences.
Then, at the end, we don't want to go home, so we take our time. Before we know it, the funny old janitor comes in and washes the blackboard. Our day's toil is now a clean slate.
Our tears for such a beautiful one ready us for another day... and another life.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Experience
I'm reminded about a man called Slim in Garibaldi Oregon (I expect that he is long gone). Every night he'd go to the tavern and drink. Every morning he'd be at the dock to meet the fisherman coming back with catches. I would watch him for hours cleaning the fish and throwing their remains to the seagulls.
Is this what the zen teachers are talking about when they say to experience whatever you are doing fully? Is zen training a process of uneducating? I understand in ancient times most people were peasant farmers who were involved with farming. Were they doing what the Zen masters preached?
One of my art teachers told me about teaching in a mental institution. He said that at first the patients had lots of fun, but then they started thinking about what they were doing and they started getting so disturbed that they had to stop offering the art classes.
If what I'm saying (that education keeps us from experiencing things fully) has any truth then why do we do it? And how could schools be changed so that students would be more capable of experiencing life fully rather than less? Ideas?
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Two irrelevant ideas
And then there is my girl friend from 50 years ago who stopped being my Facebook friend because she suspected I had become a Republican. My claims to being a libertarian must have just made things worse. If I was only friends with libertarians I'd be spending all my time infront of a mirror. So I didn't look her up after traveling 2000 miles to where she lives (no, that wasn't the reason for my trip).
And then death roars its ugly head... not once, but five times in four weeks. And with my contemporaries. When we die, we are reduced to a few grains of sand. How can that be? The priest said the other evening that when we are born our minds are blank, and then when we die we return to that state. The next day he said that when we sit zazen, we are facing death. I did not understand that when he said it, but tonight, sitting, I realized that when we focus on our breath we return to that state where there is no garbage in our noodle... and then we notice when she (the garbage) raises her ugly head, and we smile, and thank her for coming, and tell her she can leave now by the same door she entered.
He asked if I have time to mourn. I said yes, logically finding no reason why I didn't have time. But I really felt uneasy saying yes, because maybe I wasn't ready to mourn. I mentioned that my mom would say that when we mourn, we mourn our own death. Maybe, "do you have time to mourn" meant "do you have mourning time" or "are you going to allow yourself to mourn." We have time for lots of things that we don't do. Don't we?
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Burial at Sea
We watched and wiped tears as his ashes merged with the foaming sea. I was astonished how this bigger-than-life individual could so quickly become a few grains of sand. My sis reminded me that the influence he had on so many individuals was far greater than his meager physical remains.
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